Making It Up As I Go Along #614

Inner Ringing

The inner ringing.

Always there

An electrical hum

In whispered tone

Background noise

Through inner thoughts

And the outside clatter

Unnoticed soundtrack 

Of my life

Intensified with exhaustion

Dream caused wake

Brings out the ring

To the forefront 

3:00 AM darkness

Conjured more disturbing

As the ringing drifts

Enveloping darkest corners

Of an already dark night

Until morning wake comes

Returning the ominous

To whispered background

Once more unnoticed

As I stretch away the night

And yawn in a new day 

The familiar soundtrack

The hum of my silence

Far from late night fears 

MONDAY…

--- Ball is rained out tonight.  I’m alright with that.  I’ve reached a point in my softball days where if it isn’t nice and warm outside, I’d rather not play.  Gone are the days of fastpitch finals occurring in October back home… and playing on fields that frosted over as the innings went.

TUESDAY…

--- Was going to go to the Mad Max movie after work… but postponed for a week.  So I do a good walk after I get home.  A nice part of working the eight hour days instead of the twelves.  Time to do other stuff after I get home.

WEDNESDAY…

--- Ball is a go this evening.  Meet Christine for wings prior to the action.  Ate too much for the amount of running around I did.  Hit lead off and scored the first four times I got up… so lots of running left wings feeling cranky in my belly.

THURSDAY…

--- Pretty quiet after work.  Tired and not feeling too energetic.  

FRIDAY…

--- After doing the morning testing at work, I take the afternoon off sick.  Headache and a bit of a lead feeling stomach made rest at home sound better than concentrating on messy fingerprints at work.  By supper time I starting to feel more myself.

SATURDAY…

--- Close to an hour walk in the late morning.  Lots of rain keeps me in the house for the afternoon.  Laundry and TV make up the bulk of the afternoon.  Falling asleep on the sofa in the early evening.  One thing about the no shift, my night owl times are taking a hit.  Most nights I want to go to bed before midnight.  And I haven’t slept past 8:00 since coming off the CPSIC shift.  

--- I did wake up just before 3:00 AM Sunday morning and felt unsettled.  Kind of disturbing dreams blend into foggy reality.  I force myself into a better reality by turning on the light and checking out things on my iPad.