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Tuesday, December 09, 2014

Making It Up As I Go Along #599

That Time of Year
It’s that time of year
When a snowfall warning steals headlines
When the countdown is on at work
When daily routines are measured as lasts

Last grocery trip is made
Fridge stocks dwindle
Milk cheese and perishables
Five days left to get it bare

Last round of dayshift
Prodding myself to make it
Only two more predawn wakeups
Almost done until the New Year

Last nights at work come soon
Ending my Ottawa year quietly
Manning a dark office alone
Contemplating the journey home

Last visits with mainland friends
A pub of pints and tales
Laughing our way towards next year
Knowing next year is only weeks away

But it’s also a time for firsts
The first breath of salty sea air
First greetings with parents
First steps in childhood home

The first tree ornament to be hung
First walk about downtown streets
First home cooked meal
And first moments of well watched Christmas movies

Just a few more days of lasts
Until the first of the firsts
Flies me home
To begin again


DAYS…
--- It’s cold on Tuesday.  I walk to the caf for lunch and it’s not so bad… but coming back, with the wind in my face… thank goodness it was warm food I got.
--- The rest of Tuesday and Wednesday is pretty normal times for dayshift.

NIGHTS…
--- Fair amount of SICAR to do first night.  So plenty of looking at shoe impressions on snowy roads and paths all across the country.
--- Also get Thai food for the first time in months. 
--- Night two is pretty quiet and is a nice way to slide into the days off.

SATURDAY…
--- Long walk in the woods.  It’s the best time of year for this.  Ground is frozen so it’s good for walking anywhere… no muddy places to worry about.  But it isn’t so cold that you can’t manage.  Lots of layers and I’m trekking all over.

SUNDAY…
--- Another good walk and some quiet times around the house.

MONDAY…
--- Lee Valley trip.  It’s madness there but they at least have another cash open for those just getting stocking stuffers… so I’m in and out pretty good. 
--- The highway isn’t so nice though.  I swear the only time I can drive on the highway successfully is at 5:30 in the morning before dayshift.  Any other time the road is literally stopped dead with construction traffic.  Takes close to 40 minutes to drive to Lee Valley.  No traffic would get me there in about twenty.

--- Little grocery store trip after Lee Valley and go to Telus and get a new iPhone.  Weird not to use my old one still but it was getting unreliable with the battery life.  For me to go out away from the house and have the battery anything less than 80% was taking the risk that the phone would die while out and about.  Internet searching was getting slower on the old phone too.

Monday, December 01, 2014

Making It Up As I Go Along #598

DAYS/NIGHTS…
--- Work is pretty run of the mill.  Fairly busy on Monday.  Less so Tuesday.  Alone for the first three hours of nightshift on Wednesday.  Had some A & W for a treat on Thursday. 
--- Lost power for an hour on Monday due to strong winds all day.  It was already gone when I got home.  Everything being very black for several blocks.  It came back on about twenty minutes after I got home but my pizza order was already made by that point.  I didn’t want to have cereal for supper after a twelve hour day. 

FRIDAY…
--- A trip to Canadian Tire.  Got some storage shelves for the laundry and storage rooms.  And there’s my Black Friday shopping all done.

SATURDAY…
--- 45 minute walk and a fair bit of hockey on TV. 

SUNDAY…
--- Walk for just under an hour.  See a heron, big woodpecker, and between sixteen and eighteen wild turkeys out in a farmers field.  Didn’t bring my camera though.  Oh dear.
--- Watch about three quarters of the Grey Cup.  They tried to make the opening ceremony too much like the Olympics.  I mean announcing the people who carry the Canadian flag into the building?  Overblown silliness.
--- My biggest complaint about the CFL has always been the showboating.  Every play ends in a player prancing around all proud of himself or trash talking the guy either he was covering or who was supposed to cover him.  I miss the days of catches being made and treated like no big deal… of sacks being treated like “I’ve done this lots of times before and will continue to do it so no big deal.”… and of touchdowns being celebrated with teammates in a spontaneous fashion.  Too many now veer away from oncoming teammates so that they can do some sort of choreographed dance/skit/charade all unimpeded for the camera.

MONDAY…
--- Thirty-five minute walk and also a trip for groceries.  Brought the camera on the walk this time… of course, I see nothing.  Still a nice, peaceful time.


Walk of Time
Living trees have turned to columns of wood
As remnants from an ancient civilization
To be traversed respectfully
Like the Greek Parthenon or a ruined Turkish library

Shuffling through inches of leaves
Dead and browning upon the ground
Turning brittle and crispy under foot
Breeze swayed green a lifetime ago

Highpoints of the trail sit bare as mountain peaks
Having broken the leaf-line we step upon frozen caked mud
Outcrops of soil perched atop pillars of ice
Each step crunching through the delicate land
As Japanese Godzilla feet
Plowing through mud modeled Tokyo

Once hidden nests exposed
Lodged within a limbs nook
Had been bustling with downy peeping life
Now lays disheveled and abandoned

The quiet of the place broken
As a jittery squirrel leaps and bounds
Scuffling through the leaves for snacks
As an frantic child at Christmas
Digging through discarded holiday wrap
Searching for that precious small treasure  
That lays somewhere down beneath

Soon will come the snow
Burying muddy Tokyo in glacial ice
Fossilizing the fragments of leaves
And filling the ruins of the unsheltered nest
Until only a knot of snow remains
In the Skeletal column of wood

All buried in pure white
For the millennia until Spring melt chips away
As a natural archeologist
Unearthing hints of a bygone age

With new leaves budding
Turning the columns to life again
Where hidden birds peep for meals
And those soil topped ice pillars
Have turned to the muddy floor of great floodwater lakes

My sloshing footsteps left to sink and slip
As tree top squirrels
Scurry through branches
Collecting great feasts of nuts. 

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Making It Up As I Go Along #597


Another long delay in blog posting.  This time sickness was the main culprit.  If I desperately needed to write something over the last week I could have but with no hard deadline and a head that wilts with exertion, I put it to one side.  Even today, I’m not feeling terrific.  Tis the season I suppose.  But the improvement is slow and steady and if I don’t write today, it’ll be at least four more days before I would.  Work is on the horizon.

As far as daily activity, I didn’t bother writing it down while I was sick.  I mean really, cooped up in the house, coughing while in a semi-zombie state… does that need to be added to the passage of history as my “WEDNESDAY…”?  Nah.

One thing that has happened since I last wrote.  It occurred just before getting sick actually.  The last day I felt 100% healthy… I went to watch the Montreal Canadiens.


The Thirty Year Wait

Thursday morning, November 13, I scamper about the house getting clothes and toothbrush in order.  Truth be told, I started getting stuff in order Wednesday night.  Picking out clothes for the journey, clothes for the game, and clothes for the return home.  Figuring jackets and hats to take, tucking train tickets into my bag, and leaving it all in a pile in and around my bedroom chair.  I didn’t trust myself to remember it all on Thursday morning.

But here it’s Thursday and I’m nervous.  I suppose it’s a combination of several things. 

Will the construction work mess up me walking from work to the train station?  Is there a security to go through boarding a train?  Am I going to find my way around Montreal while waiting for Geoff? Could our hockey tickets be counterfeit?

Truth is, I rarely take the train.  I rarely go to Montreal.  And I have never been to a Montreal Canadiens home game. 

In the bathroom, brushing my teeth, I look in the mirror and wonder how the hockey players manage this.  A game day for them… knowing they’re going to be on the ice in front of 20,000 religious hockey people, whose god is symbolized by that red white and blue sweater with the big “C” and little “h” crested on the front (holding as much meaning for them as any cross does for a catholic)… Must leave them as jittering messes.  I mean I’m simply going to go watch.  To be part of that 20,000.  And I’ve got game day jitters.  

Anyway, a half hour later and with my teeth sanded down to the quick, I leave the house.

At work, I leave my car on the back lot, pull out my bag, and begin the march to the train station.  The construction zone makes the walk far from pleasant, but it’s uneventful too.  The last five minutes of the walk veers me off the roads.  The sidewalk meanders up a grassy hill and into a small wooded area before reaching the train station.  Walking it reminds me of my first summer in Ottawa.  Back then, I took the bus to the train station each day, made this twenty minute walk from the station to my office before retracing my steps eight hours later for the return bus home.  Back then, groundhogs and squirrels distracted me on my hike.  Today there are none… and the train awaits.

The train to Montreal is pleasant.  A scan of my ticket is all it takes as I board.  The paranoia and tension found at airports is non-existent here.  Boarding a train is like checking out a book from the library, whereas boarding a plane is like being processed for a life sentence at some correctional facility. 

I’m alone in my row.  Flop into my seat, drop my fleece into the empty seat beside me, check for a seatbelt to strap myself in… it does not exist.  Train travel truly is a delight.

The countryside passes my time.  I look out at it thinking of the English countryside this summer.  Viewed from my trains there as this is here.  There’s something about landscapes as seen from the train.  Where planes give an almost satellite, spying point of view, the train gives a time machine quality to the world.  Everything seems older, simpler.  Small communities stop what they’re doing as the train passes through.  Roads are momentarily closed, the hustle and bustle paused, and I sit in my seat, unbuckled, watching the world go by.  And when towns give way to nature, it’s largely forests and farmlands where train tracks find themselves.

I’ve a few hours to kill in Montreal before meeting up with Geoff.  With the google earth map still in my head, I wander towards the bank and, from there, head towards the hockey stadium. 

More construction brings obstacles.  It seems the entire country is under construction these days.  And here, condo towers rise up around the Stadium.  The sidewalk to the shop no longer exists.  I must brave life and limb walking half a block in the street.  Then venture up a flight of unmarked stairs.  But I make it.

I enter the store ready to spend money.  I think back to the jersey my sister bought in the rink at the old Forum when I was just a kid.  Of me wearing that, my first Canadiens sweater, with Lafleur’s number 10 on the back.  And here are the modern day sweaters.  Hanging in the home of my favourite hockey team.  I browse the walls of jerseys.  I check out hats and t-shirts too.  Pucks and key chains.  Dolls and mugs.  All red.  All with that CH logo.  Yet I walk out again having bought nothing.  It’s as if the being there was souvenir enough.

Finally I meet Geoff.  We pick up his son at daycare and head home for some pre-hockey hockey.  It’s the first hockey I’ve played with Geoff in about twenty years.  We slap plastic children’s sticks off the backyard patio stones, using the bottom step as a net… trying not to save too many of little Noah’s shots.  Unable to save some as the slap shot of that three year old is more fluid than any I’ve taken. 

Those twenty minutes in the backyard feel as Canadian as one can possibly be.  On a fall evening, in downtown Montreal, on a game night.  Playing some pickup hockey in the backyard while neighbours prepare their suppers in the glow of kitchen windows.

From there it’s to our supper.  A short walk and two subway trains take us from our backyard game to a downtown restaurant.  BBQ ribs and fried lasagna our pregame meal.  Seated next to us, Bruin fans.  He in hat and her in t-shirt.  But they’re well behaved.  Minding themselves in this world of Habs.  They leave before us, heading to the same location… yet never to be seen again among the sea of hockey humanity.

Getting our tickets scanned at the gate is the last test.  I fear the tickets are fake.  I prepare for sirens and horns to alert the staff of our deceit.   That we’ll be taken away, oh so close to my first game here. 

But with a “beep”, I get my ticket back and step through to the corridors.  We’re in.  It’s real.  This will happen.

With beer in hand we find our seats.  I sit and marvel at the banners above.  Other hockey arenas want to celebrate the banners as well.  But without enough championships in their history, they resort to “regular season champions” and “eastern coference champion” banners to fill the gaps.  In Montreal, it’s only Stanley Cups that count.  The banners line the ceiling above.  The last two victories (the ones I remember celebrating from my parent’s basement) are closest to my gaze. 

And in a separate row are the numbers.  Retired numbers of legends.  Some I watched on TV.  Others I’ve seen black and white footage of in hockey history shows.  And bringing my gaze back down to the present, the players warm up for tonight’s action.

Music and deafening cheers bring the players on the ice.  An early Boston goal brings a little worry.  Concerned that perhaps my first Habs game will be a humiliation.  I worry about a shutout lose.  Could I come all this way… not only via train but this distance through time… some thirty years a Hab fan… could I come these thirty years and not even see a goal?

In the first intermission we meet an old friend.  Danielle hasn’t been seen in decades but we all happen to be here tonight.  We would never known of each other had it not been for social media.  My facebook status update from the afternoon got passed along to her by a mutual friend… and a few facebook messages and a couple of texts later, we’re here catching up in the corridors of the Bell Centre while Zambonis scrape the ice.

Our talk runs long, and into the second period we remain away from the action.  A roar hints of goings on.  Seconds later, a great thundering shakes the floor while horns blare.  Montreal has scored… on a penalty shot… and we missed it.

Finally back to seats, we miss no more.  Four more Montreal goals are scored, with the fans becoming more excited each time.  By the time the fifth goal goes in, people are singing in the stands.  Singing soccer songs at one point.  Singing the visiting team “hey hey hey, goodbye” at another.  Geoff and I agree, this is the fastest hockey game we can remember.  We both wish for four more periods.  If only hockey games were seven periods long… at least on this night.

Post game nachos and beer at a nearby pub bring the celebration to a close.  We walk and subway home buzzing. 

A night well worth the thirty year wait.

Thursday, November 06, 2014

Making It Up As I Go Along #596

Torn Blinds
Torn blinds
Howling winds through open windows 
It can't be
All was shut as light departed
Power dies
Dimness of clocks and outdoor ambiance extinguish 
Blackness brings realization 
An intruders arm lashes out 

A struggle in the night 
Torn blinds and open windows now understood 
Punching back 
Anger over sanctuary lost 
Ricocheting off countertop
Bouncing off walls
I reach out 
Found flashlight illuminates 

A partial face pauses the action
A bit of ear
Rough cheek
Strands of black hair
And the eye
Dry and clay like white
Bordering blackness
It can't be real

And this thought awakens me
Laying in the scene of my combat
Red glow of clock pulsating shadows across the room
A hint of movement by my window
Reality returns slowly 
Drifting in as if the beginning of dreams
I reach for my light
Afraid to see that dry clay white once again

Light proves my solitude 
Though my curtain does sigh
As a giant exhaling lung
Sharpening wits notices the floor 
My vent nowhere to be found 
That which normally straddles curtain 
Now enveloped by it
My foggy mind remains unsure 

So without another there to call for
Where parents once slept across a hall
But now lay thousands of miles away 
Where protective dogs used to slumber
Now only crumpled covers lay
I open my tablet
Battling the lingering creep of intrusion 
With the cartoon light of the Simpsons

And after a few minutes of guiding Homer
Of sending Bart on an electronic task
My concerns drift away 
The pulsating red of the clock menaces no more
The vent straddling curtain hangs still
The window shut and blinds in tact
I surrender my tablet to the nightstand
And close my eyes
Hoping to see the dry clay white no more. 



FRIDAY...
--- Work alone, sort of. Mark there in training. Mona not there. Fairly quiet until Mark leaves. Then lots of work comes in after 1:30. 

SATURDAY...
--- All alone today. And busy for a Saturday. Going pretty steady most of the day. 

SUNDAY...
--- Mona back with me. Fairly normal night. 

MONDAY...
--- Quiet last night. Nice way to go into days off. 

TUESDAY...
--- Shopping. Mark's Work Warehouse for sweatpants, leisure pants, socks, and mud boots.  Test the boots right away with an hour walk in the woods. 

WEDNESDAY...
--- Shorter walk today and hang around the house. 

THURSDAY...
--- Forty minute walk and more relaxing around the house.

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Making It Up As I Go Along #595

First update in several weeks.  It’s the longest I’ve gone without doing anything blog wise.  I hadn’t posted for weeks before but, even then, had been saving drafts showing things I’d done on given days.  This time I didn’t touch it.  Parents here for a few weeks, followed by going straight back to work… and I decided to let it sit a while.

So no weekly.  Just, in brief, had a good Thanksgiving break with family in town.  Much more of a relaxed visit than most trips my parents make.  Join up with some cousins and an uncle and aunt for a bit too.  And deal with the fallout of the shooting at Parliament.  Not much else going on.


November Dread
I’m beginning to dread November. 

I’ve never had any real issue with the month in the past.  It’s a time for hockey, both on my TV set or, as a kid, running the streets among friends.  A time for comfy fleeces and warm cups of soup. 

But now it’s also Movember.  Oh how I’m hoping that silliness to fade off into the shadows of time.  I haven’t heard anything about it so far this year… and being October 30, that gives hints of hope to me.  But still I expect it to come.  To bombard us with wisps upon lips… all under the guise of cancer research.

The cause is good.  But we’re in an age of constant causes.  And it’s no longer people taking it upon themselves to give towards a cause they feel strongly about.  No, now they have to make a production out of it.  Waving and begging “Look at me! I’m doing good in the world!”

It’s cynical I know, but society is becoming too caught up in gaining personal recognition for worthy causes.  And seriously… Movember? Do we have to rename perfectly good months with stupidity like that?  Plus I’ve seen too much of those that miss the point. 

I have seen guys growing mustaches in November but they made no effort to gain sponsors.  Raising no money at all for cancer research. 

“So what are you doing growing the mustache?” I asked.

“It raises awareness.” They said.

Quite a revolution against cancer that is… you putting down the razor for a month will save the world.

Of course, there are other examples of this now as well.  The Ice Bucket Challenge took over Facebook and Twitter for most of a month.  How much good clean water was dumped down the drain in order to raise money for ALS?  Corner stores sold out of bags of ice simply so they could be dumped into a bucket of water for three seconds before getting thrown over a head and to the ground.  Surely, if a video feed of the thousands of people doing this was sent to a third world nation where water was consumed from mud puddles, they would look at us in horror. 

There’s just too much sponsor requests going on now.  I’ve seen bikers for cancer (pay me to ride my motorcycle).  Hair cuts for cancer (pay me to shave my head).  And 24 hour runs for the cure (which, for too many, amounts to an overnight drinkfest at an athletic track).

I give money to causes.  And I think it’s good that other people give money or volunteer as well.  I’m just tired of everything becoming a “look at me” event.   There are some who now devote so much time to canvasing for these causes, that their life appears to be nothing but jumping from one event to the next.  One month dumping ice water over their head… the next month growing a mustache… two months later their head is shaved and, when spring time comes, they break out their motorcycle for the season… but ask you for money to ride it, all in the name of charity. 

Not everything in this world needs to become a shared video.  It really is ok to do something for others without calling attention to yourself in the process.   And, for the love of God… mustache or no, please give November its name back.  

Monday, October 06, 2014

Making It Up As I Go Along #594

Fall Sundays
Memories of teenage years
A gathering in parking lot rinks
Teammates and opponents
Walking together
Shouldered nets, pads and sticks
Discussing teen importance along the way
School drama, action movies and girls

Hours of hockey follow
Best three of five series
Having jerseys of all kinds running the asphalt
Oiler white a teammate of Canadien red
Maple Leaf versus Canuck
Red Wing and Nordique with the pass n’ play

And as dusk closes in the games end
Gear removed and packed up again
Nets re-shouldered
And the trek back home
Teammates and opponents all friends again
Discussing the games best plays
Analyzing the outcomes
And a return to discussion of school, movies and girls

Through the door I’m blasted
A wall of heat blankets me from the sweaty autumn cold
Cooked dinner wafting through the house
Chicken, turkey, roast
Each week brings a different fragrance.
Welcoming me through the door
Bringing calming ease to the hectic day

My best friend excitedly welcomes
Ears pinned back while tail wags
Jumping to my thigh before dropping back to all fours
Sniffing around my hockey bag
Learning of my day by way of nose
While a mellow uncle wanders with mug in hand
Asking for hockey highlights
Before walking away when his fill is met

A plate of raw carrots handed over
Chopped up with mothers hands
Knowing those of the cooked variety
Would lay untouched upon my dish
I take my pre-meal snack downstairs
Chomping a bite before asking dad for the score
The football watched innocently
For love of team rather than the money of modern bets
And it’s the Canadian variety that we’re watching
NFL ignored, dad catches me up on what brought us to this place
The touchdowns of the first half
An interception that swayed the momentum

I plunk down upon the sofa nodding
And update him on my street hockey career
Telling of the shutout I got
Playing out a replay of a glove save
All told with the expectation that Montreal may still call on me
My street hockey being fantasy minor leagues
Secretly scouted from cars by old Hab legends

And to this day I’m transported back
From a different town
In a different age
But Fall Sundays remain entrenched
As I wander up to my kitchen
Swearing I can detect the aroma
Of an ovened roast
Prepared twenty-five years ago.



MONDAY…
--- Monday on a Monday at work.  The pain of such things is at least reduced with the ability to wear jeans for charity. 

TUESDAY…
--- Lunch across with Shannon.  First time we’ve done it in months.  The cafeteria is really reducing.  Very little choice of food compared to even a year or two ago.  One type of wrap.  Burgers.  And today’s special… spaghetti.  That works fine for me.  But poor Shannon.

WEDNESDAY…
--- Fairly regular night shift. 

THURSDAY…
--- Pizza night.  Mona and I split a Louis’ Pizza.  Work has to be a pretty good time with that to be eaten.

FRIDAY…
--- Lay fairly low.  Go to the eye care place to look at getting my frames fixed/repaired.  Lucky to have it fall under the warrantee.  A small walk and most of the time just hanging around the house.  Relaxing.

SATURDAY…
--- Laundry day.  And TV watching as the rain is falling outside. 
--- Evening hockey pool draft goes fairly well. 

SUNDAY…
--- The big draft tonight in hockey pool land.  Our office keeper league picks tonight.  I guess I do OK in the draft.  As good as I could considering the trades I made last season.   But I need things to go right with some player development for me to get in the money this season.

MONDAY…
--- Back to the eye care place to get my new frames done.  Much better fit again. 

--- Look into the cell phone thing.  My contract is running out and I have to figure out what to do.  Back to Telus? Over to Rogers? iPhone 6? LG phone?  HTC? The head spins with phone stuff.